Pilot

deep inside my mind, there is this though that tries to hide
it succeeds most of the time but shows itself when i'm lying
in my bed up late at night when i can't sleep but i won't rise
to capture what i'm hearing in my head so i just lie

and tell myself that i'll remember in the morning but, oh my
resistance just grows stronger each time i refuse to try (why try?)
but tonight i felt it coming so i told the wife goodnight
grabbed a notebook and a pencil and i waited for a sign

six hours at it now
and i'm fading fast
i think i just found the hook
i hear it now but i'm tired and i'm trying to recite
but will it come right back when i wake?

plus, this tune won't be my last i tell myself as i drift off
tomorrow is a brand new opportunity to cheat myself
so i'll get up and work from nine to four or ten to five
be an adequate, compliant, cheerful, corporate guy (yeah guy)

then perhaps a sign will come to me as i wrap up with work
and i'll have the time and space i need to jot down and record
okay, i was mainly joshing, i don't think i stand a chance
but i heard that optimism helps us fight the resistance

six hours at it now
and we're starting to drag
oh brother here comes the hook
well i had it then it was fine, now i'm trying to revive
but it will come right back on this take?

six years at it now
and there's no turning back
oh mother this is the hook
you hear it now though it's late and you're wasted but maybe
it'll stick with you when you're

gone, gone, gone

it'll stick with you when you're gone

Nobody Knows

nobody gives good advice
(just projections)
everyone wants to feel heard
(self-obsessions)
somebody promises change
(without intention)
but i'm gonna give you my word
(at my discretion)

dance around the issue, craft a line to dish you
run around in circles till there's nothing that's left of you

tragedy and apathy, pregnancy and policy
history and rivalry, popery and sodomy, too

you don't need to worry, kid, got your best interests
everything is peachy, the adults know what to do

we'll convince you it's raining
but it's just piss

nobody knows that i'm lying
nobody would even care
some words are best said unspoken
some things are best left elsewhere

dance around the issue, craft a line to dish you
run around in circles till there's nothing that's left of you

tragedy and apathy, pregnancy and policy
history and rivalry, potpourri and sodomy, too

you don't need to worry, kid, got your best interests
everything is peachy, the adults know what to do

we'll convince you it's raining
but it's just piss

nobody knows that i'm lying
nobody would even care
some words are best said unspoken
some roads just lead you nowhere

nobody knows that i'm lying
nobody sure seems to care
some bonds are best kept unbroken
some things are best left elsewhere

kid, read my lips, we're all lying
kid, you should probably care
it's clear as day this world's broken
no goddamn chance of repair

nothing in this life is fair

Walking Cigarette

i am a walking cigarette
i am the day that hasn't happened yet

i am the devil's advocate
i am not the protagonist

you can bet

that i know that you don't know yet

i am the romeo to juliet
i am the serious candidate

i am a deadbeat silhouette
i am the goddamn crown of debt

taking bets

cause they know
yeah everybody knows
that you don't know yet

alright

i am an antique clarinet
i am the monumental marionette

no duets

cause i know
everybody knows

yeah i know
everybody knows

that you don't know yet

For The Birds

do you ever spend your night
thinking where you might have been?

put your life under a light
would you do it all over again?

wondering where we might all be
with an ivy guarantee, that's swell

a different person you may see
with a different story to tell

don't you know they all say
things can't always go your way?

those regrets in your head
swirling round while you're tossing in bed

forge ahead, undeterred
cause you'll learn, they're not of concern

and digging up old bones is best for the birds

do you ever spend your day
dwelling on the way things went?

do away with the cliché
quit searching for what it all meant

because remorse is just a sea
of distant memories, recalled

when you're living in the past
can you say you're living at all?

don't you know they all say
things can't always go your way?

those regrets in your head
swirling round while you're tossing in bed

forge ahead, undeterred
cause you'll learn, ain't much to discern

don't you know they all say
things can't always go your way?

those regrets in your head
swirling round while you're tossing in bed

forge ahead, undeterred
cause you'll learn, they're not of concern

and digging up old bones is best for the birds

just leave that shit for the birds

Faire Enough

so, you had a little bit
to drink last night
well, i take that back, more than just a little

seems like a solid day of rest
could right you up
i think that might be beneficial

shame, such a waste
feed the flame, just the same

so, it happened again
will the fur of this hound
relieve a sense of déjà vu?

and why do i do
this to myself?
pass the stuff

i'll pay tomorrow for today
i guess that's

fair enough

it's an age-old line
just one cup tonight should be fine
oh, i confess
i confess i lied

now or later
probably soon
i'll regret having acted like a fool

shame, such a waste
feed the flame, just the same

wake up feeling like you made decisions that you'd like to undo
oh it's true

wasted half the day now and i'm wondering if you feel the same
way as i do

close the shades and pull the covers
swear you'll never touch another
cause now you're gonna have to suffer
so, you mutter

why do i do
this to myself?
pass the stuff

i'll pay tomorrow for today
i guess that's

fair enough

Last

brilliant and classic, can't wear a frown
who might you ask? oh, the greatest around

oh, my love, was there every any doubt?

bins in the bathtub, brushes in the glass
have you seen the tape? hey, where'd you leave it last?

oh, but still, never any doubt

oh, my dear, i get so sad when you are not near
and i must say, it's much warmer in your atmosphere
you're the greatest, my latest
my last

jeppson's and nut juice, in high demand
not one for judgment, my biggest fan

oh, but still, never every any doubt

said no, my love, there was never any doubt

oh, my dear, i get so sad when you are not near
and i must say, it's much warmer in your atmosphere

when we might i was unfit, and
i could not have lied, admit it
you were only looking for fun
but i would not permit it
all my favorite shit you dig it
everywhere we go we split it
i knew you were second to none
good god, and i committed
all upon the fan the shit hit
once we met, i couldn't quit it
girl, you had me hooked from the start
you baited me, i bit it
oh my lord, i stepped right in it
you did too, come on admit it
we were hardly living before

now it's forever, ain't it?